Tuesday, March 1, 2011

When Things Change

Did anyone else blink and lose the entire month of February? I don't know why February seems to fly by so fast. Maybe it's because January always seems to take forever, and after that any month feels faster. It's one of those mysteries of the world, I guess.

You may or may not remember my epiphany that I'm addicted to productivity, and the realization that I don't relax very well. (Post is here.) Well, let me warn you that you might want to be careful what you put out to the Universe. The last month saw a few big changes for me and my family. My husband got a wonderful job opportunity, which in public education means that he gets to do double the work for the same pay. Two days later he was asked to take on another pretty hefty project. And now I no longer have one responsibility that used to be a good-sized time commitment.

So now our roles are somewhat reversed. My dear hubby, who jealously guards his free time, no longer has any, and me, the workaholic list addict, suddenly has my To-Do list cut in half.

I should be excited to have more time to write, more time to dedicate to the kidlets, and time to actually sit, but to be honest I'm feeling a little lost. You'd think I'd keep up the frenzied productivity that I love and just fill it with all those things that got put on the back burner. Instead, I check the email account that suddenly doesn't have anything coming in, look at the phone that isn't ringing off the hook, and continue to ignore the basement that I still have to organize.

My hubby insists I'll feel relief and enjoy less responsibility. I'll just go sit in the sun for a while and wait for it to happen.

Sometimes change stinks.


Nisa said...

Aw, that productive feeling is wonderful and it's hard to not have it, I have to admit I'm kind of like that too. I live in the Bahamas for crying out loud and just two weeks ago I sat on the back porch for about an hour just soaking up sun and thought, why in the world don't I do this more? Yeah, I haven't done it since...

L.T. Elliot said...

I feel like this about change a lot. It's hard to adjust and sometimes I feel a bit helpless in the face of that extra time.


Wendy Swore said...

Give yourself a little time and it'll get better. I think it's easier to fill your days than wish you could make some freetime.